Day 6693

 To do list:

1.  Wish bf good luck on exam
2.  Take plates down 
3.  Unload dishwasher, partly at least 
4.  Hang up washing
5.  Get back to SNBT Matt o.o
6.  Change light bulb in room...

Analyse sustainability and develop mood board further.
Jackdaw Redrup

• TtR plan... Maybe...
• Think of birthday present for Grandma o..o
• Take over the world Muhahahahahahahaha.... No.

Day 6692

I had a thought just now about how I have a lot of things that I can talk to people about right now, specifically about my life, this was prompted by the amount of words and information I just spewed at my grandmother over the phone.

In other mind numbing information and stuff about things:
It's fathers day soon, then it's my grandmothers birthday and then it's my boyfriends... his sisters birthday is also coming up soon but, I don't really know anything that would be suitable to get her o.o so ... she shall just get a facebook message, I'd say I'd get her a card but it would be lying to myself, and setting unrealistic expectations.

That said for all my lack of interest and mild hate of cards I sent one to my boyfriend, yaaay. It had 100 paper cranes drawn inside it, then a sticky note saying good luck x10. I was thinking of finding/making a 4 leaf clover... but that would mean going outside ... and not getting to draw. I also "Sealed" the card :3 This is something I shall probably do forever! Because it amuses me o.o  So good luck in exams to everyone! Even though my luck will make no difference as you won't read it and even if you did...It would still not make a difference.

I have finished my exams YAY!!! ... Well, exam and in all honesty I think I shall get a D maybe a C if the examiner feels nice o.o... Because~ The answers I gave were not really in depth enough, analytical enough, or well "rich with external reference/examples"  so yes o.o.... I shall fail and not go to uni...Yet.

WHY ARE HEADPHONES SO EASY TO BREAK - first world problems... T.T

IN OTHER NEWS ( yay for caps lock... I'm sorry) um I have.... A billboard, now this is a little depressing, emphasis on the little, as when I tell people this they are like " what is that?" and they do know what it is, but don't expect me to have one and so do not react with the excitement that I want them to ... BUT then when they realise I mean the boards that go over roads and normally have advertisements they are like YAY congrats and I am like yesh <3. This is all from the Surreys Next Big thing competition and just  just... They are so lovely to me....  I am so thankful o.o..... But have no way of showing this V.V

Now originally I was not going to post this as it has my name on and, blogger tells me that people in america have viewed this blog O.O at like 3am, when I'm meant to be asleep o.o.. So I was like... They could stalk me, and find me and STUFF O.O then I quickly came to the conclusion that even if I didn't show the image and people wanted to find me it really wouldn't be that hard.

Also hello person from America! I wish you fast recovery from your mind numbness that is surely induced by this blog.

Today continued

Boyfriends birthday ideas

He's going to be 18 in the near but distant future and, this is my list of ideas so I don't loose track.
This blog is basically turning into an online notebook right now...Interesting perhaps my skills in creating mind numbed viewers shall increase as a result!

Soooo anyways, for my 18th I asked for a clue and he told me it was purple. Sooo I shall be giving him all purple items in the hopes he will ask for a clue and then I can say "it's purple... ;)" though I doubt that he shall so... Well... I'll deal with that when it comes.

18 mini (mostly purple if not all)  presents is the theme that I'm going for. Bold for the definite things! May I present to you a random selection of ideas~

1) Tie
2) Cufflinks - 1 +2 both that he shall probably never use... but oh well o.o...
3) Lip balm ( When I have money it's being bought :3  ) 
4) Pen ( In transit ) 
5) DvD - (The colour purple? in transit) 
6) CD
7) Book - (will buy soon I HAVE FOUND ONE..// in transit / need to buy but its put by >.>)
8) Balloon... probably be very girly o..o
9) Ink~

Now I am stuck, to Lord Google~

There is a purple store!  http://www.thepurplestore.com/thepurpleman.shtml

This amuses me... Anyways~

10) Map cushion/poster if found 
11) glow in the dark condoms 
12) Macaroons? Or some other purple sweet  O.O The chocolate... Cadburys.. thing he really likes !!! Sorted.

Maybe I should just... give him a variation of this >.>....Looks so tasty...

( http://www.cocobox.com.au/shop/chocolate-bouquets/gifts-of-love/ )

13) Top/jumper/shirt ... Thing - ( jumper to buy >.> It fits me also <.<.. not sure if i will get...) 

14) Myself :O..... I could be... Ribenafied XD I don't know - or in a cute outfit? - portal pants o..o

15) Sticky notes (will buy when I has money)

16) Keyring laser that he could use with the cats >.> (will buy when money is obtainable)

17) Purple rubber duck! 

18) Purple cake o3o that looks like portal cake >.>? in a portal box o3o cheah~ 

other ideas that I will add because it could also work o.o...

• Boxers
• Socks
• Myself :O..... I could be... Ribenafied XD I don't know - or in a cute outfit? - portal pants o..o
• Purple poster? World map image - wrapping paper and photo frame
• Photo frame - with me and him o3o... maybe thats more what i want o.o..
• A card. I rarely give cards.... 
• Giant googly eyes...
• Mug 
•  Usb? head phones? Wallet? >.>...Basically what he got me V.V
• Gift card?
• stickers 
• notebook...:/
• Tissues and hand sanitizer :L or just tissues...
• Plant? Cactus/bonsai/bamboo 
• Cushion - companion cube, map, shirt? 
• Alcohol, - wkd is the only purple one that I know off o.o...He'd be legal by then...
• A scratch card... might go with this if I have a gap to fill
• http://familycrafts.about.com/od/seashells/ss/Sea-Shell-Candle-Craft.htm

Ideas I am going with / Things I actually have/in transit

16/18 / 10/18

Day 6689

Dreams, so I had a dream... And I'ma write about it~

I was reading a book called Changeling by Philippa Gregory before I went to sleep o.o.... And I feel the main character from that somehow entered my dream and stuff.... Now I only remember certain parts and even though I've been constantly going over the parts I remember I'm sure this will make no sense to anyone but me~

Girl from the... now time? goes to the past, around tudor time. with... some exceptions >.>

The king or ruler of the land welcomes her and assigns her to a room that , is pretty basic but in the center of the little village. She has  boxes and boxes of her stuff and oh that's right before she got to the room they were traveling with horses like a whole army and her stuff was on a cart, then when they were near the village he told her were to go to ( that room) and said their would be more instructions in the morning, so they left her stuff on the cart and she had to go back and forward carrying these heavy boxes to her room.

Her room was on a second floor with like a balcony outside connecting all the rooms, I'm guessing below was some shops or something though that never came into the dream. But the entranceway to the stairs was really, really tight and at times in my dream it seemed like a liquid stone sometimes easily letting someone through and other times they had to scramble through tiny cracks that it made.

So that happened and then she was exploring and met someone her own age and they chatted for a bit but then, he left her and the more she walked there become less and less people around her. Until she reached like a rose garden and there was this women in a beautiful white dress and it was all flowy and pretty and there was a massive  pile of rose petals and two children were jumping  into them, though when they saw her they stopped  and kept looking at the women. And she walks over and my character said something  like she was lost should she not be here? or something I don't really remember words spoken in my dreams.  Um so the woman points at the ground and there is like a dark stone running through the otherwise creamy/grassy ground and she says that only royalty is allowed to pass it.

So after a quick exit she returns to her room, now filled with her boxes to find another box with a note that says please take this to the castle, to which the guy that owns the rooms and just happened to be leaning by the door says >.> something like you can take my car and dangles the keys in front of her and she's like no thanks I'll walk. And as she tries to get passed him there is a soft crying from the other room and he won't let her passed and she's like... Excuse me? Then after kinda staring at her for a while he shifts his weight and she passes under his arm.

As she goes outside she see's a bright yellow lamborghini ( I have no doubt that this was in my dream because i've seen photos of the one on the wall so often on imgur XD  ) and this was the car the guy was offering her...Anyways~ She doesn't know where to go gets sent to a field area by some kids they point at the big white tower in the distance   they all say go there. So she finishes playing and goes off across the fields and then theres this big army that isn't the one that she came with and they are all like, we won't kill you if you go back this city is surrounded no fighting and no one gets hurt, so off she goes back to the room and then the dude that blocked her way before was all like and now you shall sell your body so as to pay me rent and then she slaps him and he slaps her back and he leans in all creepy like and stuff.... That's when I woke up o.o.. I decided after waking that the leaning dude was part of the invading army and he thought he had more power than he actually had and yeah o.o

The end.

Day continued

So, I rather liked this image so much so that it is currently my desktop background. 

Not so much for the images but for what they say. 

Sooooo.

1) Drawing

2) Animation

3) Baking

5) Poi 

6) Cooking 

7) Japanese 

8, 9 , 10, 11 .... I'll get to those at some point. 

Day 6687

Welcome to another pointless post! Here I shall simply be tidying my room.... It's kinda boring O.o so I'ma make a list and try and do it quicker. Whilst listening to the radio o.o.. I mean this is a mundane blog and all, did you really expect anything different?

Anyways on with the listing~

Make up
Hair stuff
bags
Shoes
Rubbish
Pile up art
School stuff
Put away notebooks
Clear desk
Put clothes into red basket
Scarves
belts
Random paper
File the needed paper
Clothes o..o   I will do it... another day >.>, but that day.... Is not today.
but the rubbish downstairs
take any plates ect down
Misc stuff
Finnish changing the sheets
smile and think now your room is tidy enough and make some tea :)

P.s get rents to vacuum the floor~

Video paused cause I ran outta space D: TAke 2

one hour fast forwarded to one minute, I wonder how the video shall come out using blogger XD. For some reason YouTube keeps crashing on me, stupid syncing stuff -.-. Another time maybe.


Aha, well that quality is.... Uh interesting....>.>....Oh well who cares~

The music used in the video ~o.o~

Day 6686

The day shall be named when I am more awake.
Life is kinda depressing, isn't it?

We strive to gain comfortable lives, or wealth and power to make ourselves feel dignified or signified. And then theres adrenaline and despair to challenge the happiness we feel and validate it in some way. Even if we reach our goals can we become truly content in the now and forget about the past and present... But those are the things that separate you from a beast that give humans identity that ... even in the small drops of time we take up...gives us what...? We create these meanings through religion...which is just another stereotype... us and them.... It's a judgemental society, but then if you are naive and ever trusting the risk of being conned and hurt just increases... It's not that I want to say there is a point or ask if there is one but... I don't even know.


My tired ramblings I am sure lack coherency, as the red lines under my words are growing more common place in each thing I type.

My media exam is on Tuesday, theorists and their theories... It seems in media I have the potential of an A grade in visual work and c/b in writing.

Let me see

Fiske, Mkay, Adorno, Marx, Althusser, Castel

• Pluralist, he said consumers don't have to buy the things they can say no
• information is set free, there is lots of choice and we can kneecap media gods - bad side is that although the unregulation gives us faster wider views the quality is lessoned, information blizzard, and we may become desensitized more so... 
• Dumbed down society who is injected with the dominant ideology we passively soak up ideologies then support them as we do not like change, we do not like to be challenged, we do not like to be abnormal.....
• they create and keep the capitalist society to increase the cycle of consumptions and commodity fetishism
• I forget .... oh, he said about  how different areas of society affect our ideology, - moral panic? 
• Illusion of power, we are in a bubble of choice - google search engine 

Then there is gramsci who I forgot he was the dominant ideology marx was just well... marxism

Then judith butler and queer theory that gender is a performance that society defines, and mulvey with the beauty myth and feminism whole shebang  how we are made to feel inadequate but these products can show us the false ideologies of perfection that we have been exposed to so so much.... Raunch culture and if something is voyeuristic or... another word  which I have now forgotten.

Simulacra = a copy of a copy of a copy . Satire = a comedic mocking style exposing reality
I can think of no other S words.... T.T

That's 9 people and their theories, I can remember that now.....

MIGRAINE
mise en scene this is wrong.... its media language so...key terms? oh no.... http://en.wikiversity.org/wiki/Media_Language  I see.
i - ideologies... duh V.V
genre
r - representation
audience
institution
n - narrative... i'm not sure i shall remember this, though i suppose most images have a narrative of some kind
evaluation

HESP
historical
economic
social
political

For the first part of the exam I will need to speak sophisticatedly, be rich with supporting external reference, and include theorie showing a good understanding this could be done by contradicting the theorists.  I will also need to be concise as  ill only have 10-15 mins writing...

Second is either representation or NMT please be nmt V.V please be a good one.... I was looking at women in video games, and world of warcraft.... I need to use theory... and external facts and supporting things from lots of media platforms  the question will be around who has the power, audience or industry
adapting, social media, things....

just over 24 hours before my exam...... I wonder how much I can retain that will be useful. And I shall be slower and less accurate in writing than typing.

If I do not get into uni I shall go to China. Or work. But my drawing skill shall increase, my Japanese shall also increase, and perhaps I will break some bad habits. Then I can apply again....Or find a tutor/ apprenticeship...

I have come to the conclusion... again, that I do not approve off or enjoy exams they seem arbitrary to true skills found in a person and worth can be diminished as we are all leveled into to closely defined categories. Though, aside from my domination plans of the world I have no other solution that would currently work... So my complaints and judgement is left worthless.

I am just rambling.....