Day 6804

Boy conclusions

He doesn't want to break up with me, doesn't want to put the effort into a long distance relationship// Worries about the amount of time and money it will take up.


I have given him  choices

1) Come see me with my stuff that's at his house and break up with me in person.
2) Come see me with yellow roses to say sorry and we will work things out
3) Do nothing and I will come to a decision.


He has till the end of October. Well till the 25th.

I've given him my time table so he knows when I'm free and details of where the coach would go (£10) and the train (£18) and he knows where to go if his mum is driving.

I'm also not going to contact him till he decides, if he talks to me I will respond but I won't start the conversations.

If he does decide to be stay with me and sleeps over, we will not be doing sexual things -.- no more than cuddling anyways.

I'm not sure what I will do if he breaks up with me o.o or how I will feel........ It'll either be tons of body wrenching sobs, or I'll become emotionally distant from everything.

One thing I do know is if we break, that's it. No getting back together.

We shall see.

Day 6802

Thing of today ^

Thing I made today v

More on the link.
http://imgur.com/gallery/d429g/new

Poor sad drachorn :(

Day 6799

On another slightly less angsty note and before I forget. 

Shake away! Am making it my goal to try all of these at least once. Over the next 3-4 years at Portsmouth. This could cost a lot.

if it is striked through then I've tried it

Just a stike = it was probably okay just nothing amazing.

Italic = Didn't really like

Bold = Liked a lot would recommend

Underline = Had hot

Total money spent so far - £9

amaretti • bourbon biscuit
chocolate chip cookie • chocolate hobnobs
chocolate milk digestives • custard creams
ginger nuts • gold bars
hazelnut choc chip cookie • iced gems
jaffa cake • jammie dodger
malted milk biscuits • oreo cookies
party rings
milk or white choc covered oreos

OREO WITHOUT THE CREAM BIT...
BECAUSE CUSTOMERS HAVE LICKED IT OFF!

ALL OF THESE ARE MADE WITH 0% FAT FREE FROZEN YOGHURT!

apricot • banana • blueberry
(when available) • carrot • cranberry
fruit cocktail • ginger • grapefruit • kiwi fruit
lemon & honey • lemon & lime • lychees
 • lime • mandarin • melon • passion fruit
 • peach • pear • pineapple • raspberries
 • rhubarb • special K • strawberries
(when available)
sweet plum tomatoes

topping of granola 49p

5 MILE RUN!

black jacks • bubblegum millions
dolly mixtures • fisherman’s friend
flying saucers • fruit salad chews
haribo starmix • jelly babies • jelly beans
jelly tots • liquorice allsorts • love hearts
maoam stripes • marshmallows
parma violets • refreshers
sherbet fountain • skittles
soft eating liquorice • sour cherries
starburst • strawberry laces • 
strawberry millions • lime & orange tic tacs
trebor extra strong mints
trebor spearmint softmints • vanilla fudge
vimto chew bars • werther’s original
wham cola • wham original raspberry
wham sour apple

SWEET BREADS... JUST KIDDING!

aero mint • after eight • boost • bounty dark
 • bounty milk • bournville
cadbury's caramel • cadbury's creme egg
cadbury's fruit & nut • chocolate • crunchie
curly wurly • daim bar
double decker • ferrero rocher
fry's orange cream • frys peppermint cream
hersheys cookies 'n' cream • kinder bueno
kit kat chunky • lion bar • maltesers
peanut m&ms • mars • milka chocolate bar
 • milky bar
milky way • minstrels • reese's cups
revels • rolos • smarties • snickers • starbar
terrys chocolate orange • time out
toblerone • turkish delight • twirl • twix
walnut whip • wispa

NOTHING ELSE MATTERS!

apple • apple & blackberry • apricot
banana • blackcurrant
blueberry (when available) • cherry
coconut • cranberry • fruit cocktail • ginger
grapefruit • kiwi fruit
lemon & lime • lemon curd • lime • lychees
mandarin • melon
passion fruit • peach • pear • pineapple
raspberries
rhubarb • strawberries (when available)

A MAD FRUIT LOOP, WE KNOW YOU ARE!

apple pie • bakewell tart • battenburg

birthday cake • blackcurrant cheesecake

cadbury's chocolate mini roll • caramel

shortbread • carrot cake • 

chocolate fudge brownie

chocolate muffin • fondant french fancies

jam doughnut • jamaica ginger cake

strawberry cheesecake • syrup sponge

toffee cheesecake • treacle tart

HAVE YOUR CAKE AND DRINK IT!

black forest gateau • cinnamon sticks
green & blacks 70% cocoa chocolate
green & blacks 85% cocoa chocolate
green & blacks milk chocolate
guylian belgian chocolate sea shells
white chocolate lindt lindor truffles
milk chocolate lindt chocolate truffles
roasted hazelnuts • tiramisu • vanilla pod
english cream tea made with scones,
strawberry jam and cream

QUEEN ELIZABETH II

choca mocha • chocolate pop tart
coco pops • crunchy nut cornflakes • custard
farleys rusks • honey • horlicks
maple syrup • marzipan • nutella • ovaltine
peanut butter • rice pudding
snowball • strawberry trifle • sugar puffs
toffee popcorn • weetabix

THE BUCKET LIST

Day 6799

 ( Warning to all non existent people, this will contain a fair bit of teenage angst) Relationship complaints......  Because....No one really reads this, don't really have anyone to tell.... Could tell my best friend or my mum but then if I regret what I say I can't take it back... And on here I can just delete it?


I don't even know...


It's just like he is ALWAYS busy, and right now doesn't have any time for me.  I feel like I'm always the one contacting him and it's like when we skype... He'll be looking at reddit or if someone fb messages him he'll talk to them not say he's busy. Same with texts and steam and other messages and it's just like ... DUDE! I want to talk about stuff.... I miss you...



It's like when he was on holiday, I was starting uni so I was kept busy and didn't mind the lack of chatting and stuff. But now he's back I kinda... expect him? To text me during his work breaks or on his way to work or on his way back or to say when he's home or to ask me for a change if we can have a call?


I'm probably being obsessive and fairly clingy but... This has turned into a long distance relationship, and apparently one where we hardly talk.

It's like .. What's the point? I don't want to break up with him, he's not someone I could easily replace  I genuinely do like him... So much. Thing is I've already told him how I feel about this... Not recently to be fair but this has basically been happening before his exams when he was revising, till now. Nothing has really changed. I didn't like the situation then... And I like it even less now.

I get he's busy. He has a job from 9-6.30 every week day, he has to sort out all the ucas and banking for next year, he's having driving lessons, he's got to read this gigantic book so he's prepped for applying to uni again and doesn't forget all the things he's learnt. 'nd of course he has to eat and socialise with his parents and friends.

Then he's a gamer as well so there are lots of games he wants to play, tv shows he wants to watch and he likes to read each night as well. Plus the every now and again cake baking that he does and all the stuff I've forgotten. Whilst he's busy trying to cram all that stuff into his free time... Here's me asking him to spend more time on me.

BLAREIFAYFu hrgebntmryhtb v o...............o Screw this situation! (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻


Another thing that annoys me. I wanted to play GW2 with him, he said he was bored of the game o...o BUT THEN his friends start playing it, and he's all like o.o I will play this game! It is fun and I'm just like -.-.....Cool.  Just thought I'd add that in as you know... Complaining and stuff, why not.

And he never let me meet up with his friends, save at prom and even then he was all cagey about it. So I didn't meet his friends till we'd been going for a year and a bit.


I feel like I should say some nice things to way out all the harsh things I'm saying.... -insert lots of nice things here-


I'm just gonna... Walk away now... Eat... Probably delete this later... or write a new post being all ~o.o~ it's all good non existent people I just overreacted... and if I don't then... We shall see.

Day 6798

Welcome to my most recent animation.



Today I start my first lecture o.o excited much!  It's like christmas... But not.
And everyones getting freshers flu V.V please don't let me get it, please don't let me get it D:

Day 6797

First migraine at uni.... Well it was more a bad headache, but still was in bed till 12 ish.... It's almost like I'm a "normal" student with a hangover, save for the lack of drinking the previous night..... And now I'm dehydrated and headachey and bleh O.O


Later today a duck animation will be aired.
I shall have emailed my mum the massive list of stuff I would like her to bring.
I shall have sent off// applied for my student rail card and sorted out my online banking. Simple.


And shall profusely apologise for missing my call with Australian Tyler V.V Damn it.


Yes o.o

Day 6796

First animation made at uni! Can you guess which part is mine? Well can you? You non existent peoples o.o..... Anyways~


A guy I've met here at uni and lives in the halls near me is turning 20 on Wednesday.
So heres the plan.

He is over his cold by then, he sits at a table nearish the kitchen entrance ( so they can reach him easily) he is facing the window ( so he doesn't see the cake coming ) then the cake is presented.

He will have a badge, saying 20, go out for a drink with peoples o.o and in theory get free drinks o.o SIMPLE

The cake is going to be some Baking boys cupcakes, 20 to be precise, pyramided o.o with a candle I got today that sings happy birthday >.>

and and I got him a poster and ali also got him the poster ( we split the moneys ) o.o and it has all the simpsons people on it o.o

PLANS I has them... and stuff .... Good night o.o