( Warning to all non existent people, this will contain a fair bit of teenage angst) Relationship complaints...... Because....No one really reads this, don't really have anyone to tell.... Could tell my best friend or my mum but then if I regret what I say I can't take it back... And on here I can just delete it?
I don't even know...
It's just like he is ALWAYS busy, and right now doesn't have any time for me. I feel like I'm always the one contacting him and it's like when we skype... He'll be looking at reddit or if someone fb messages him he'll talk to them not say he's busy. Same with texts and steam and other messages and it's just like ... DUDE! I want to talk about stuff.... I miss you...
It's like when he was on holiday, I was starting uni so I was kept busy and didn't mind the lack of chatting and stuff. But now he's back I kinda... expect him? To text me during his work breaks or on his way to work or on his way back or to say when he's home or to ask me for a change if we can have a call?
I'm probably being obsessive and fairly clingy but... This has turned into a long distance relationship, and apparently one where we hardly talk.
It's like .. What's the point? I don't want to break up with him, he's not someone I could easily replace I genuinely do like him... So much. Thing is I've already told him how I feel about this... Not recently to be fair but this has basically been happening before his exams when he was revising, till now. Nothing has really changed. I didn't like the situation then... And I like it even less now.
I get he's busy. He has a job from 9-6.30 every week day, he has to sort out all the ucas and banking for next year, he's having driving lessons, he's got to read this gigantic book so he's prepped for applying to uni again and doesn't forget all the things he's learnt. 'nd of course he has to eat and socialise with his parents and friends.
Then he's a gamer as well so there are lots of games he wants to play, tv shows he wants to watch and he likes to read each night as well. Plus the every now and again cake baking that he does and all the stuff I've forgotten. Whilst he's busy trying to cram all that stuff into his free time... Here's me asking him to spend more time on me.
BLAREIFAYFu hrgebntmryhtb v o...............o Screw this situation! (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻
Another thing that annoys me. I wanted to play GW2 with him, he said he was bored of the game o...o BUT THEN his friends start playing it, and he's all like o.o I will play this game! It is fun and I'm just like -.-.....Cool. Just thought I'd add that in as you know... Complaining and stuff, why not.
And he never let me meet up with his friends, save at prom and even then he was all cagey about it. So I didn't meet his friends till we'd been going for a year and a bit.
I feel like I should say some nice things to way out all the harsh things I'm saying.... -insert lots of nice things here-
I'm just gonna... Walk away now... Eat... Probably delete this later... or write a new post being all ~o.o~ it's all good non existent people I just overreacted... and if I don't then... We shall see.
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